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Title is useless.

I just finished my personal statement and testimonial, and frankly, it reeks of egoism, arrogance and superiority. For the practicality of survival in today's society, we go so far to achieve a worthy purpose.

I betrayed my morales, my values, my beliefs. I'm glad it's over.

It was still, in essence, a good chance for self-reflection, waking myself up to the stark reality that I really don't have much achievements. Unlike in lower sec, I no longer excel in any subjects (even those that I like, like maths) because somewhere in my mind, I think it is not necessary to. But looking back, I'm actually feeling quite guilty cos I have no point to anchor my pride to. Humility is good, but being proud of something...it makes you feel more alive.

I'm just a popularity wannabe, a trying-to-get-the-best-of-ALL-worlds suck-up boy. It's time I have some pride.

Therefore, may I conclude that sometimes, when I swear vulgarities, I pride in being myself instead of the constipated me I show to others most of the time? ALthough I feel no pride in being rude to my parents of course. I don't deliberately offend anyone because I don't see the need to, not because I want to gain their favour. Get that right! =)